I know no one cares but....

I am feeling so sad right now. I have a longing to be a part of something that I know will never be. And James unintentionally made me realize that just now. Its such an empty, horrible feeling. I absolutely hate it. I feel as though the little tiny strand of hope that I had has been snapped. But, the worst thing of all is that I realize that almost all of this is my fault. I have made so many mistakes along the way that I just don't know how to fix them!
The one thing I do know.... As long as I am in Indiana away from my friends and family I will never ever be happy.
:(

Give me my space please

This is about a pet peeve of mine. James and I went to a small Chinese restaurant here called First Wok. Its not a sit down restaurant where you have a server. You order your food and then find your own table. Well, when we ordered our food we were the only ones in there. So we chose a table to sit at and waited for our food. Meanwhile another couple comes in and places their order. Now keep in mind, James and I were the ONLY ones in there when the other couple came in.

And just guess where they decide to sit.....

They have every single table except ours to choose from....

And they decide to sit RIGHT BEHIND US!

Seriously? Out of every table in here you had to sit right next to us....

I'm sorry. Maybe I am a b!tch, but I just find it very annoying when people do this!

Life as it is...

So I have decided to try this blog thing. And I will be honest. I have no idea what to talk about at the moment. I supose I am suppose to ramble on about what's going on with my life and what I have done for the last week, but I am just not in the mood for that at the moment.
So I will leave you with this and come back when I have something more interesting to talk about. :P