Why do I do it? Why do I put every ounce of energy into making someone happy? I love my husband with all my heart, but I just don't get it sometimes. How can he be so mean and nasty? How can someone who loves me talk to me like I am a piece of dirt? It makes me feel awful. It makes me feel like everything we have gone through over almost 7 years of marriage was for nothing. It makes me feel empty and alone. I can't imagine anything feeling worse other than someone I care about dying, but to be honest, its not that much different. Its like the person I married is dead.
I understand that people change. Time changes people. The battles we face in life make us change continuously and that's okay as long as we don't forget who we really are and who we really love. When you start to push away the people who care about you most, you are making a huge mistake. Regardless of how much someone loves you, everyone has their limits.
Just know that I have fought for you every step of the way. I have loved you, been there for you, fought for you, prayed for you...
I have loved you regardless of your flaws and I always will, but I guess everything comes with a price. You got the promotion and the stress of a hectic job. I get to deal with the after effects, depending on how bad of a day you had at work...
